Work Life Wrap-ups

So since I resigned this February, I’m still unemployed.

Yeah I was hired in an office job. But it was a 1-month only job, so I don’t really consider it a working experience.

You might be wondering why I resigned?

It’s because I didn’t really appreciate the job, work environment and the head/supervisor… I really tried to appreciate the head, but I have limits… We all are.

Why does she always frowning, like her eyebrows were knotted very tight, whenever she sees me? I think I would appreciate the job if the situations were opposite, but now I dislike it.

Now here’s a thing.

I took my experience there as a challenge, WHICH I evidently failed. There are a lot of failures in my life, and that was one of it. I actually regretted that opportunity naman, the whole work experience.

An opportunity I wasted. But I’m sure there’s someone fit for that job.

During my 2-weeks on that 1-month only job, I REALLY missed my old job. And I actually realized why I felt that way. It’s because I’m in the stage of comparison that time. You know comparing my old and new job. It’s not good.

However I still endured, and actually hoping that my supervisor would treat me properly. After more weeks I overcame wanting to return to my old job.

There are a lot of things I want to share (which is all about that 1-month only job). But I’m lazy and tired– forgive me now. And it will only turn out to be my tantrums and full of negativity. So let’s just move on na lang.

So I moved on now, and continuing to survive. Praying to God for His will to what job I fit.

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Goodbye To You

I’m sorry I’m incapable these times

I hope you understand

I know that you were mad

I’m dealing with regrets

That I don’t know how to solve

It’s enough pain to go along

We didn’t have pictures together

But you’re in my memory forever

You had been like a grandmother to me

So know that you have a part in my life

Happy birthday in heaven

Rest in the paradise with tatay and God,

Nanay.

When hard became harder

You know, life is hard.

You try your best everyday.

But it become even harder everyday.

Yes, we should not pray for an easy life.

There’s just a moment when it’s what you’re praying alone.

Maybe it’s not wrong to pray for it.

That you’re tired of the hardships that day.

That you want immediate peace.

That whenever you close your eyes,

you can still feel the weight of the hardships.

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Peculiar

I would not know it, or I just don’t want to concede.

But maybe, this life is somewhat melancholy.

Or maybe living in reality, that is.

We strive to live and survive.

But then we will notice that it is not enough.

A day would come when we are impatient for something to befall.

Eventually it can be depressing and lonely.

But we still attempt to strive.

Life is peculiar.

You will be drawn to its oddity.

Why would life be like this?

Life Is A Course

I would like to change.

That’s why I compel myself to learn.

I don’t like to fasten in little information I have.

I wish you’ll let me.

I’ll always get lessons because life is a course.

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